fucking perfect

this song inspires me a lot....especially the music video.....
when u were being neglected or mistreated,
the sorrow and the pain fill up every corner of ur heart,
change the voices in your head,
do you ever feel like u are nothing?
do you ever feel like u are less than perfect?
remind yourself nobody's perfect.....

不能遗忘。。。。就用心去记下。。。。

既然不能忘记。。。不能释怀。。。。。就用心去回忆。。。。

我的表弟拿了我的电话，就问 “姐，你wallpaper的男孩子是谁来的哦？”

我只能勉强笑一笑，却没能回答他。。。。怕说出来。。。。我会克制不住想哭。。。

小孩子嘛。。。。不回答他。。。他还是缠着你。。。。但是他却不问了。。。。可能他也察觉到我跟平常不一样。。。。

朋友对我说。。。。。干嘛你还放你跟他的照片，这样不会更难忘记。。。。这张照片很有渊源。。。。这是我们考spm最后一天，你硬拉着我拍的。。。说什么我们认识那么久却一张合照都没有。。。。当时我还记得，我不是很愿意。。。。拜托，头发夹着那么丑的鲨鱼夹，加上那可以跟熊猫媲美的黑眼圈。。。。有哪个女人想拍照。。。。但是我却很庆幸。。。你的坚持。。。让我们有了第一却是最后的合照。。。。我们两个竟然没有留起来。。到最后却是在福华的电话里。。。。好在那天我联络了福华。。。。才找到这张照片。。。。看到这张照片，感到很安心。。。。。

在人生的道路上难免会遇到挫折。。。。我不擅长面对生离死别。。。。需要比平常人多点时间去适应。。。。所以朋友们原谅我，我还走不出阴霾。。。。

那天你的离开。。。。我很震惊。。。却哭不出来。。。在医院门口不停骂你没义气。。。。扔下我们就那么离开。。。。。始终没有勇气去看你最后一面。。。。我怕我会失控。。。。你在病床至今还一幕幕在脑海里上演。。。。那是你为生命在奋斗的痕迹。。。。

想念你那句，“最近过得好吗？”

那么温暖又诚恳。。。。。只是现在听不到了。。。。

study study no play play liao

class class class and lots of long hours classes.........

arghhhh.........i think i should pull up my socks now as the my final exams are just around the corner.......hectic hectic busy busy........woooo,dark circles getting darker and darker,pimples evolution.....oh my god,how i wish i can get rid of exams......

I'm always an average kid so whether able to get high marks really doesnt bugs me......getting my tax paper back,i were so disappointed.......simon is a really good lecturer,enjoy listening to his class,but i just couldnt achieve my target marks....depressing......this incident strives me to study my tax paper......maybe i were having this sort of thinking . F6 and T9 is almost the same so why bother to put more effort in this paper...end up getting this lousy marks....this is wad we so called "karma"......akhirnya terima balasan.....dun act wise next time Zzzzz....gonna prove it to myself for the mock exam,i can do it!!!!!!!!!!

我能体谅

我終於明白 美好的往往留不下
卻能給人最深最遠的影響
你笑容裡的暖陽 你說過的每句話
總是陪著我出門 又陪著我回家

很感謝你
給了我 好長的依靠
那種甜蜜 不是想要就能得到
我會微笑著退讓 全歸你的功勞
儘管眼淚不知不覺的流下

我能體諒你離開我的身旁
超越我的感傷
我能體諒你要的那個遠方
讓我追不上
都那麼的愛過 有什麼不能為
不能為對方著想

我能體諒你肩膀
除了自由 都不願意扛
我能體諒你的心 多麼害怕
被綑綁
就讓愛的人也能愛他所愛
也算是 幸福啊

因為愛你 我上了 最好的一課
原來成長 不只是一味的快樂
你忠於你的選擇
要更好的人生
我不能陪你 至少能幫你完成

secrets...

Cannot deny the fact that everyone has his or her own secrets locked up in their hearts......

A past or something they couldnt tell coz they always think that nobody gets wad they are thinking,how they feel......nobody understands..............

and wad if they know,Could they accept this flaw???Can u guarantee they could still treat u like before.......

so we choose........rather to let the truth unrevealed.......burried deep down underground.....

maybe my heart is waiting for that special person who really understands.........who really cares........

guess that i'm waiting for salvation..........

i miss nat a lot!!!!!!!!

Natasha finally went to Japan liao~~~~~feel so empty la~~~~since the day she came back from kl,we kinda hang out almost everyday,every week full of activities.......now that she's gone to Japan,seems like no late night activities.......y she owes needa leave so suddenly~~~~~~like last time,she got her jpa notice last minute til she needa postpone her driving test.........this time......after all the tsunami thingy,she said she might be leaving end of April........mana tahu........

she was informed few days before the flight......wth.......leaving in the beginning of the april.....

miss the days i owes drive her home........singing in the car,chit-chatting,sharing secrets........all these fully packed schedules makes me think of cherishing and treasuring all the memories and time together with the gang......as it's gonna be very tough for us to meet each other after this year.....

To me,she's the only friend who really knows wad i needed,wad am i thinking,how i feel.......that's why we owes stick together since form 1 til now.....

first time walk to Kenyalang just to read comics haha, get to know Novels becoz of her,overnight in sch and camping with her.........we've been through a lot of tough and weirdest experience, fighting with a beggar becoz he snatched my drink........haha...

she's the kind of friend who cries and laughes with you....

To be honest,i never felt regret of meeting her....she's a friend to be treasured.......

However,when the time comes,we are forced to grow up........althought we might not be walking at the same path now...........might feel lonely sometimes.......i believe distance never kills true friendship....hahas........nat,i'm waiting for ya to come back!!!!!hang out like last time......

saya sudah naik pangkat lur!

my brother giving her milk not breastfeeding,haha
just wake up o.0
like this pic the most..........she stares at ppl,waiseh
sleep all day long

oh my,i'm a 姑姑！！！！baby wanna be mysterious,we only know her gender when she was borned.......i bet she's going to be very active and naughty.....coz she likes to move around in her mummy's stomach......haha

my sister in law gave birth to a pretty baby girl on 13th of April,naughty baby did not want to celebrate her birthday with her grandma which is on 12th of April....=)

Before her "arrival",my sister in law and i google a lot of name.....both male and female.......well..after all those discussion,we decided to name her "Cherlin".....which means CHERYL (beloved) and LINDA (pretty)

after 3 years.we finally met

wuuuu..............kintio kintio,keep telling myself boh su

but when i met him,my heart pounded so loud that i wished he didnt hear that........everything turns out......dunno how to express myself already....useless of me.........

luckily he approached to me first.......barely c his face expression coz i'm looking at the floor........

didnt hate him after all these years.......i realised i'm the one who should be blamed ....

no time for him......no time for love............aiks........that's why he falls for another gal.......

dramatic breakup isnt my style........i forgive him,forgive her.......

i'm glad to see him doing quiet well in college....at least he still remember wad i told him........dun give up on education..............

at least we're still friends right now..............=D

one month...

jie.....u left us one month already.......time flies.......how ya doing there fellow???how's life?do take k of urself...

yesterday i saw three little kids playing around,made me think of us....u,tak and i used to play together during primary sch time....hehe........Felt so sorry when i recalled some incident........do ya remember????i threatened u becoz u broke my pencil case last time????So childish of me.....aduh,miss those time we hang out together neh~~~

when are u going to meet me up in my dreams?????schedule too packed isit???haha,boh su boh su,i can wait=)

arrrgh,yesterday rain quiet heavily.....nearly hit by a bus......omg,thanks for blessing me...i know i should be more careful next time......

miss ya my dear angel