changes

study alone outside without ur parents let me realised how much i depends on my family.....now i need to be independent~~~settle my own meals,washing my own clothes,hanging my own clothes.....when u're eating every meal outside,u definitely miss home cooking,especially my favourite that mum always cook~~everytime mum called me,i can hear her sobbing although she tried to cover the sound,tears shed.....i admit that i really miss home!

days here are like months,every sen counts,i needa think and budget when spending my money,woahhhh,it's kinda tough for a big spender~~~

kinda get used to the lifestyle here,and the haze.....i read the newspaper,the authority person said that the situation is moderate,feel like laughing,staying at 26th floor,and yet i need to sweep my floor everyday ~~~~~

day 7 in kl

it's been a week i'm staying in kl,starting a new life here....

well,everything doesnt turn out to be like wad i expected,kl is a hell of money sucking city,everything is about $$$$$$$

the drivers are like mean and fierce,traffic jams nearly all the time,taxi fees are awfully expensive,

the food.....gosh,terrible.....miss kolo mee laksa definitely mummy and aunt's cooking!!!!!!!

as a conclusion,kl is a city to travel but not a city to live in....

although kuching is small but at least i'm feel comfortable living there,gosh,i'm homesick

luckily i was thinking to finish off my fundamental here and go back to kuching working and study part-time there......

i couldnt holding back my tears when i'm talking on the phone with my mum........

really miss her,my family and my friends in kuching!!!!

no roommate in the moment,i heard from other housemates that she's having her holiday might be returning on the 25th of july,god!!!

oh well,my class finally started,gets to know two new friends which is jasmine and sui mei!!jasmine's from kl,she came to uni by bus,i was shocked when she told me the bus fees is rm100 per month,i was like wad the fuck!!!

sui mei is from miri,finally i met someone from sarawak,she came here last semester!glad to meet her!!!haha

Ee meng and i were hanging out sunway pyramid for the past few days....we went for movies,lunch and got some grocery from there,plus,we saw bears while walking the canopy to sunway pyramid!!!!!

homesick,i wished raya holiday can come sooner!!!

my relationship with anime

I'm the type of person who cant live without animation....

I almost forgot when did i first watching anime....

my childhood memories were never cartoons like doraemon,sailormoon,barbies....

when other girls are role-playing,i was addicted with backstreet boys,animation such as digimon,rave,ayashinoceres,fushigi yuugi,and many more...

however my first anime is 'ayashinoceres',梦幻天女

if u are a manga lover like me especially shoujo manga,then you should know this comic writers, Yuu Watase 渡濑悠宇

Her comics are awesome!!!Some were further produced as anime and also great dramas like zettai kareshi!<3

The storyline for ayashinoceres are as below,which i google from wikipedia~haha

Aya Mikage and her twin brother Aki go to their grandfather's home for their sixteenth birthday unaware that it's actually a test to see if they have enough angel or celestial maiden blood in them. Aya is the reincarnation of a powerful celestial maiden called Ceres. When she transforms into Ceres, Aya obtains supernatural powers and abilities such as flight, teleportation, telepathy, incredibly strong and powerful telekinesis, premonition, projecting highly strong, powerful and destructive deep pink glowing energy blasts from her hands, creating incredibly strong and powerful impenetrable shields and barriers of pure deep pink glowing energy, and superhuman speed. According to the legend, Ceres will kill the Mikage family for revenge upon stealing her celestial robe, thus preventing her returning home to Heaven, so Aya's family attempts to kill her. However, she is saved by Suzumi Aogiri, another angel descendant with supernatural powers, (since not all Mikages have angel blood) and Suzumi's brother-in-law, Yūhi. Aya tries to control Ceres's power over her and Aki is taken over by the vengeful hateful spirit and soul of "Mikagi", the ancestor of the Mikage family who first stole Ceres' celestial robe, forcing her to stay on Earth. Aya also wrestles with her growing love for Toya, a servant of the Mikage who is trying to kill her, but lost his memory of his past. He also starts to love Aya in return. Aya promises Ceres to help her find her celestial robe in exchange for not killing her family (especially Aki) who hunts her down, since Aya still loves them. Toya tries to regain his memory. He learns that he was the organism that Ceres's celestial robe (otherwise known as "the mana") created to help it reunite with Ceres.

although she is 40 years old plus,she keeps updating her comics,which i think she is really a very great comic writer!!

finally it's over!!!!

oh my,f7 is tough,not something that we are expecting......

i told my parents,be prepare for failure....i dont want it also.....did it badly....this is the first time i had this sort of feelings....no confidence whether i can even pass this round,luck doesnt stick to me in this exam...i wanna redo the paper again....=(

oh well,the exams are over......shouldnt think much on that

all i can do is just wait,awww.....dooms day

btw,i realise there's only 2 weeks left to kl~~~~~~

but i'm not as excited as before,i start to miss home,family,friends....

a new fresh start,new environment,new friends and roomies.....hope i can get along with my roomies,haha

a lot of plans,to do list before the i leave kuching to kl

1.going to koreana with ming fen

2.book tickets

3.buy facial products

4.sing k with my college friends and my old buddies

5.maybe a day trip with my gila gila gang

6.......haven think about that yet.....hrmmmmm.....

gonna create the besto memories before i leave=)

nonsense

We never know what will happen next minute,or even next second......

so why are we keep worrying this instant??

and not live your life to the fullest,enjoy every moment in life=)

I care about criticism well who don't bloody cares???

My principle is to be myself,no matter how people look at me,how people think of me,i'm me.....if u cant accept the real me then dont come and bother me!!

Before you criticise someone, walk a mile in their shoes.Then you will found out that you are just the same like them.Who are you to judge other people?

That's why i hate girls being bitchy....sometimes i really cant get them,if u're not happy just say it out loud.....there's no need to act like you are victimised with the puppy looking eyes........had enough with the backstabbing,fuck being girls......

I say what when i think it's appropriate to say and plus i really hate perasan girls.......they are really hard to deal with......who can give them a bucket of cold water and pour directly from their head to toes.......let them be rational to think that,not every guys are obsesses with you.........urghhhh,why am i typing this anyway

Don't mind criticism. If it is untrue, disregard it; if unfair, keep from irritation; if it is ignorant, smile; if it is justified it is not criticism, learn from it.

things arent the same like before

things changes....family,friends,life.....

Uni life kept me busy as usual,sometimes i'm free ，two classes per week but once the lecturer flies in to kuching,my whole weekend says sayonara to me....especially when there's progress tests and mocks at the following week,no time to rest at all,not to mention hanging out with friends during the weekends....worst of all,i couldnt cope with my studies....my results are borderline......felt even more disappointed when i receive my results ......

failing to plan is planning to fail

i'm not a good planner,or i could say i hate planning.....

i'm the type when it comes to the very moment,then i'll strive myself to study hard

guess that it's time for me to pull my socks....and get my head into studies

something keeps bothering me recently...

my friend said i've changed or maybe she've changed......we used to be very closed in secondary school and we were not as close as last time......i admit i've put her cold recently....it's my own issues.....felt so sorry for her when i know that she was upset and down....especially i'm not there for her when she needed me most........

after listening to her,i examine myself....i'm really not a good friend......promised her our friendship bond wont change even if everything has changed......so she could just call me and cried thru the phone saying 'susu,i'm not happy,sad......"

and that's wad a friend is for.......=)

friend,cant do much for u,but the least that i can do is to hear u out when u need me