那些年，我们一起追的女孩

九把刀，笔名很古怪，一个长得很普通的男生，却有着惊人的才华。就像他说的，“我想成为一个很厉害的人，让这个世界因为我而有一点点的改变”，这让人听了很儿戏的话，如今他却做到了。。。仅仅让文字而改变了这个世界，从小说到电影，都让人很震撼。。。。

“那些年，我们一起追的女孩”，不只叙说了九把刀的青春，也让人回想起以前那青涩的初恋。。

“與青春訣別的關鍵時刻，最容易創作出關於青春最棒的作品。

我的青春很快樂很瘋狂，卻也有很多遺憾，這些遺憾是青春美好的副作用，帶著我回到十七歲那年的青春盛夏，看看我們這一群臭小鬼，當年是如何擠破頭追求那可愛的女孩，沈佳宜。

大家都說我很幼稚，但幸好我比大家想像的都還要幼稚。

我找了一群很好的製作夥伴，熱力十足的年輕演員，浩浩蕩蕩回到故事發生的地方，我的故鄉彰化，我的母校精誠中學，我穿過的制服，重現十五年前的時代氣氛。

電影，會很好看。”

这是九把刀给各位读者的话，简单却很有吸引力。

故事大纲：

青春是一場大雨。即使感冒了，還盼望回頭再淋它一次。

柯騰的一群好友，為了共同喜歡的沈佳宜，不約而同從精誠中學國中部直升到高中部，繼續未完的戀愛戰鬥。

某天柯騰因過度惡作劇被導師處罰，坐到好學生沈佳宜前面，由她代為監視。起先兩人彼此抗拒，但柯騰漸漸喜歡上逼他用功讀書的沈佳宜，沈佳宜也受到柯騰帶來的迥異價值觀深深地衝擊，柯騰展開了追求，沈佳宜則猶豫不決。

高中畢業後，原本快要在一起的柯騰與沈佳宜，卻因為柯騰舉辦的自由格鬥賽大吵一架，遺憾未能成為戀人。

看著一起追過多年的女孩步入禮堂，成了別人的新娘子，每個男孩都得到了各自的成長，也繼續追尋各自的幸福。

座位前，座位后，让九把刀带大家一起回忆生命中那颗重要的苹果吧！！

男主角

柯藤为了佳宜受罚

赫邵文也有出演

男子汉不偷桃

这一幕超帅的

去赴女孩最后的约

心酸的画面，最爱的女孩结婚了

home is still the best place!

after the 9 days of raya holiday,i miss home even more~~~~

spending the 9 days with my family,buddies and my college friends seems like a dream...

that's why they said happy times are always short,why cant we extend time?haha

lotsa my buddies went back to studies,nat went back to japan~yin wei at johor,ming fen and yew ling going to kl~chuan jian went to sabah~~~~

all of us are walking at separate path already,woah~time flies...

like wad devy said,this is a stage of life,we cant avoid it

the day before i took off,i was seriously homesick,coz my lovely aunt cooked and ordered some food for me....mummy cooked my fav food and helped a lot with the packing,daddy searching everywhere to buy the herbs medicine..feel the warmth and the love~<3

somehow i wish once i open my eyes,it was only just a dream,i am still in kch,in my own bed~~~

mummy and daddy,i love u=)
3 months time to meet them up,definitely be missing them!

my first experience using ktm and attending bon odori

it was a cloudy saturday,my senior,ee meng who's not willing to admit that she's my senior,haha dragged me to attend bon odori,which a event so much like"ghost festival" in chinese culure but it's a japanese event anyway.There's a big difference,we celebrate ghost festival like sadly but they celebrated it happily,dancing for some ritual i think...

nat told me tat her juniors are going to dance this year,i bet i saw some jpa students on the stage...

well,back to the point,my first time on ktm really scared the hell out of me,one word simply to describe ktm,crowded.....btw,anyone in the future using ktm,please be aware of the pickpocket....u might be the next victim~~~

we went there with some of the students in sunway,they showed us the direction and then we came back earlier by ourselves...

Luckily we managed to catch the last bus,orelse betul gg.com.....

there were a lot of stalls selling japanese food and kimono for rm 200 per set,actually it's kinda cheap already,but i cant afford to spend tat money in kl~~~that's two weeks pocket money for me~~~~

changes

study alone outside without ur parents let me realised how much i depends on my family.....now i need to be independent~~~settle my own meals,washing my own clothes,hanging my own clothes.....when u're eating every meal outside,u definitely miss home cooking,especially my favourite that mum always cook~~everytime mum called me,i can hear her sobbing although she tried to cover the sound,tears shed.....i admit that i really miss home!

days here are like months,every sen counts,i needa think and budget when spending my money,woahhhh,it's kinda tough for a big spender~~~

kinda get used to the lifestyle here,and the haze.....i read the newspaper,the authority person said that the situation is moderate,feel like laughing,staying at 26th floor,and yet i need to sweep my floor everyday ~~~~~

day 7 in kl

it's been a week i'm staying in kl,starting a new life here....

well,everything doesnt turn out to be like wad i expected,kl is a hell of money sucking city,everything is about $$$$$$$

the drivers are like mean and fierce,traffic jams nearly all the time,taxi fees are awfully expensive,

the food.....gosh,terrible.....miss kolo mee laksa definitely mummy and aunt's cooking!!!!!!!

as a conclusion,kl is a city to travel but not a city to live in....

although kuching is small but at least i'm feel comfortable living there,gosh,i'm homesick

luckily i was thinking to finish off my fundamental here and go back to kuching working and study part-time there......

i couldnt holding back my tears when i'm talking on the phone with my mum........

really miss her,my family and my friends in kuching!!!!

no roommate in the moment,i heard from other housemates that she's having her holiday might be returning on the 25th of july,god!!!

oh well,my class finally started,gets to know two new friends which is jasmine and sui mei!!jasmine's from kl,she came to uni by bus,i was shocked when she told me the bus fees is rm100 per month,i was like wad the fuck!!!

sui mei is from miri,finally i met someone from sarawak,she came here last semester!glad to meet her!!!haha

Ee meng and i were hanging out sunway pyramid for the past few days....we went for movies,lunch and got some grocery from there,plus,we saw bears while walking the canopy to sunway pyramid!!!!!

homesick,i wished raya holiday can come sooner!!!

my relationship with anime

I'm the type of person who cant live without animation....

I almost forgot when did i first watching anime....

my childhood memories were never cartoons like doraemon,sailormoon,barbies....

when other girls are role-playing,i was addicted with backstreet boys,animation such as digimon,rave,ayashinoceres,fushigi yuugi,and many more...

however my first anime is 'ayashinoceres',梦幻天女

if u are a manga lover like me especially shoujo manga,then you should know this comic writers, Yuu Watase 渡濑悠宇

Her comics are awesome!!!Some were further produced as anime and also great dramas like zettai kareshi!<3

The storyline for ayashinoceres are as below,which i google from wikipedia~haha

Aya Mikage and her twin brother Aki go to their grandfather's home for their sixteenth birthday unaware that it's actually a test to see if they have enough angel or celestial maiden blood in them. Aya is the reincarnation of a powerful celestial maiden called Ceres. When she transforms into Ceres, Aya obtains supernatural powers and abilities such as flight, teleportation, telepathy, incredibly strong and powerful telekinesis, premonition, projecting highly strong, powerful and destructive deep pink glowing energy blasts from her hands, creating incredibly strong and powerful impenetrable shields and barriers of pure deep pink glowing energy, and superhuman speed. According to the legend, Ceres will kill the Mikage family for revenge upon stealing her celestial robe, thus preventing her returning home to Heaven, so Aya's family attempts to kill her. However, she is saved by Suzumi Aogiri, another angel descendant with supernatural powers, (since not all Mikages have angel blood) and Suzumi's brother-in-law, Yūhi. Aya tries to control Ceres's power over her and Aki is taken over by the vengeful hateful spirit and soul of "Mikagi", the ancestor of the Mikage family who first stole Ceres' celestial robe, forcing her to stay on Earth. Aya also wrestles with her growing love for Toya, a servant of the Mikage who is trying to kill her, but lost his memory of his past. He also starts to love Aya in return. Aya promises Ceres to help her find her celestial robe in exchange for not killing her family (especially Aki) who hunts her down, since Aya still loves them. Toya tries to regain his memory. He learns that he was the organism that Ceres's celestial robe (otherwise known as "the mana") created to help it reunite with Ceres.

although she is 40 years old plus,she keeps updating her comics,which i think she is really a very great comic writer!!

finally it's over!!!!

oh my,f7 is tough,not something that we are expecting......

i told my parents,be prepare for failure....i dont want it also.....did it badly....this is the first time i had this sort of feelings....no confidence whether i can even pass this round,luck doesnt stick to me in this exam...i wanna redo the paper again....=(

oh well,the exams are over......shouldnt think much on that

all i can do is just wait,awww.....dooms day

btw,i realise there's only 2 weeks left to kl~~~~~~

but i'm not as excited as before,i start to miss home,family,friends....

a new fresh start,new environment,new friends and roomies.....hope i can get along with my roomies,haha

a lot of plans,to do list before the i leave kuching to kl

1.going to koreana with ming fen

2.book tickets

3.buy facial products

4.sing k with my college friends and my old buddies

5.maybe a day trip with my gila gila gang

6.......haven think about that yet.....hrmmmmm.....

gonna create the besto memories before i leave=)

nonsense

We never know what will happen next minute,or even next second......

so why are we keep worrying this instant??

and not live your life to the fullest,enjoy every moment in life=)

I care about criticism well who don't bloody cares???

My principle is to be myself,no matter how people look at me,how people think of me,i'm me.....if u cant accept the real me then dont come and bother me!!

Before you criticise someone, walk a mile in their shoes.Then you will found out that you are just the same like them.Who are you to judge other people?

That's why i hate girls being bitchy....sometimes i really cant get them,if u're not happy just say it out loud.....there's no need to act like you are victimised with the puppy looking eyes........had enough with the backstabbing,fuck being girls......

I say what when i think it's appropriate to say and plus i really hate perasan girls.......they are really hard to deal with......who can give them a bucket of cold water and pour directly from their head to toes.......let them be rational to think that,not every guys are obsesses with you.........urghhhh,why am i typing this anyway

Don't mind criticism. If it is untrue, disregard it; if unfair, keep from irritation; if it is ignorant, smile; if it is justified it is not criticism, learn from it.

things arent the same like before

things changes....family,friends,life.....

Uni life kept me busy as usual,sometimes i'm free ，two classes per week but once the lecturer flies in to kuching,my whole weekend says sayonara to me....especially when there's progress tests and mocks at the following week,no time to rest at all,not to mention hanging out with friends during the weekends....worst of all,i couldnt cope with my studies....my results are borderline......felt even more disappointed when i receive my results ......

failing to plan is planning to fail

i'm not a good planner,or i could say i hate planning.....

i'm the type when it comes to the very moment,then i'll strive myself to study hard

guess that it's time for me to pull my socks....and get my head into studies

something keeps bothering me recently...

my friend said i've changed or maybe she've changed......we used to be very closed in secondary school and we were not as close as last time......i admit i've put her cold recently....it's my own issues.....felt so sorry for her when i know that she was upset and down....especially i'm not there for her when she needed me most........

after listening to her,i examine myself....i'm really not a good friend......promised her our friendship bond wont change even if everything has changed......so she could just call me and cried thru the phone saying 'susu,i'm not happy,sad......"

and that's wad a friend is for.......=)

friend,cant do much for u,but the least that i can do is to hear u out when u need me

fucking perfect

this song inspires me a lot....especially the music video.....
when u were being neglected or mistreated,
the sorrow and the pain fill up every corner of ur heart,
change the voices in your head,
do you ever feel like u are nothing?
do you ever feel like u are less than perfect?
remind yourself nobody's perfect.....

不能遗忘。。。。就用心去记下。。。。

既然不能忘记。。。不能释怀。。。。。就用心去回忆。。。。

我的表弟拿了我的电话，就问 “姐，你wallpaper的男孩子是谁来的哦？”

我只能勉强笑一笑，却没能回答他。。。。怕说出来。。。。我会克制不住想哭。。。

小孩子嘛。。。。不回答他。。。他还是缠着你。。。。但是他却不问了。。。。可能他也察觉到我跟平常不一样。。。。

朋友对我说。。。。。干嘛你还放你跟他的照片，这样不会更难忘记。。。。这张照片很有渊源。。。。这是我们考spm最后一天，你硬拉着我拍的。。。说什么我们认识那么久却一张合照都没有。。。。当时我还记得，我不是很愿意。。。。拜托，头发夹着那么丑的鲨鱼夹，加上那可以跟熊猫媲美的黑眼圈。。。。有哪个女人想拍照。。。。但是我却很庆幸。。。你的坚持。。。让我们有了第一却是最后的合照。。。。我们两个竟然没有留起来。。到最后却是在福华的电话里。。。。好在那天我联络了福华。。。。才找到这张照片。。。。看到这张照片，感到很安心。。。。。

在人生的道路上难免会遇到挫折。。。。我不擅长面对生离死别。。。。需要比平常人多点时间去适应。。。。所以朋友们原谅我，我还走不出阴霾。。。。

那天你的离开。。。。我很震惊。。。却哭不出来。。。在医院门口不停骂你没义气。。。。扔下我们就那么离开。。。。。始终没有勇气去看你最后一面。。。。我怕我会失控。。。。你在病床至今还一幕幕在脑海里上演。。。。那是你为生命在奋斗的痕迹。。。。

想念你那句，“最近过得好吗？”

那么温暖又诚恳。。。。。只是现在听不到了。。。。

study study no play play liao

class class class and lots of long hours classes.........

arghhhh.........i think i should pull up my socks now as the my final exams are just around the corner.......hectic hectic busy busy........woooo,dark circles getting darker and darker,pimples evolution.....oh my god,how i wish i can get rid of exams......

I'm always an average kid so whether able to get high marks really doesnt bugs me......getting my tax paper back,i were so disappointed.......simon is a really good lecturer,enjoy listening to his class,but i just couldnt achieve my target marks....depressing......this incident strives me to study my tax paper......maybe i were having this sort of thinking . F6 and T9 is almost the same so why bother to put more effort in this paper...end up getting this lousy marks....this is wad we so called "karma"......akhirnya terima balasan.....dun act wise next time Zzzzz....gonna prove it to myself for the mock exam,i can do it!!!!!!!!!!

我能体谅

我終於明白 美好的往往留不下
卻能給人最深最遠的影響
你笑容裡的暖陽 你說過的每句話
總是陪著我出門 又陪著我回家

很感謝你
給了我 好長的依靠
那種甜蜜 不是想要就能得到
我會微笑著退讓 全歸你的功勞
儘管眼淚不知不覺的流下

我能體諒你離開我的身旁
超越我的感傷
我能體諒你要的那個遠方
讓我追不上
都那麼的愛過 有什麼不能為
不能為對方著想

我能體諒你肩膀
除了自由 都不願意扛
我能體諒你的心 多麼害怕
被綑綁
就讓愛的人也能愛他所愛
也算是 幸福啊

因為愛你 我上了 最好的一課
原來成長 不只是一味的快樂
你忠於你的選擇
要更好的人生
我不能陪你 至少能幫你完成

secrets...

Cannot deny the fact that everyone has his or her own secrets locked up in their hearts......

A past or something they couldnt tell coz they always think that nobody gets wad they are thinking,how they feel......nobody understands..............

and wad if they know,Could they accept this flaw???Can u guarantee they could still treat u like before.......

so we choose........rather to let the truth unrevealed.......burried deep down underground.....

maybe my heart is waiting for that special person who really understands.........who really cares........

guess that i'm waiting for salvation..........

i miss nat a lot!!!!!!!!

Natasha finally went to Japan liao~~~~~feel so empty la~~~~since the day she came back from kl,we kinda hang out almost everyday,every week full of activities.......now that she's gone to Japan,seems like no late night activities.......y she owes needa leave so suddenly~~~~~~like last time,she got her jpa notice last minute til she needa postpone her driving test.........this time......after all the tsunami thingy,she said she might be leaving end of April........mana tahu........

she was informed few days before the flight......wth.......leaving in the beginning of the april.....

miss the days i owes drive her home........singing in the car,chit-chatting,sharing secrets........all these fully packed schedules makes me think of cherishing and treasuring all the memories and time together with the gang......as it's gonna be very tough for us to meet each other after this year.....

To me,she's the only friend who really knows wad i needed,wad am i thinking,how i feel.......that's why we owes stick together since form 1 til now.....

first time walk to Kenyalang just to read comics haha, get to know Novels becoz of her,overnight in sch and camping with her.........we've been through a lot of tough and weirdest experience, fighting with a beggar becoz he snatched my drink........haha...

she's the kind of friend who cries and laughes with you....

To be honest,i never felt regret of meeting her....she's a friend to be treasured.......

However,when the time comes,we are forced to grow up........althought we might not be walking at the same path now...........might feel lonely sometimes.......i believe distance never kills true friendship....hahas........nat,i'm waiting for ya to come back!!!!!hang out like last time......

saya sudah naik pangkat lur!

my brother giving her milk not breastfeeding,haha
just wake up o.0
like this pic the most..........she stares at ppl,waiseh
sleep all day long

oh my,i'm a 姑姑！！！！baby wanna be mysterious,we only know her gender when she was borned.......i bet she's going to be very active and naughty.....coz she likes to move around in her mummy's stomach......haha

my sister in law gave birth to a pretty baby girl on 13th of April,naughty baby did not want to celebrate her birthday with her grandma which is on 12th of April....=)

Before her "arrival",my sister in law and i google a lot of name.....both male and female.......well..after all those discussion,we decided to name her "Cherlin".....which means CHERYL (beloved) and LINDA (pretty)

after 3 years.we finally met

wuuuu..............kintio kintio,keep telling myself boh su

but when i met him,my heart pounded so loud that i wished he didnt hear that........everything turns out......dunno how to express myself already....useless of me.........

luckily he approached to me first.......barely c his face expression coz i'm looking at the floor........

didnt hate him after all these years.......i realised i'm the one who should be blamed ....

no time for him......no time for love............aiks........that's why he falls for another gal.......

dramatic breakup isnt my style........i forgive him,forgive her.......

i'm glad to see him doing quiet well in college....at least he still remember wad i told him........dun give up on education..............

at least we're still friends right now..............=D

one month...

jie.....u left us one month already.......time flies.......how ya doing there fellow???how's life?do take k of urself...

yesterday i saw three little kids playing around,made me think of us....u,tak and i used to play together during primary sch time....hehe........Felt so sorry when i recalled some incident........do ya remember????i threatened u becoz u broke my pencil case last time????So childish of me.....aduh,miss those time we hang out together neh~~~

when are u going to meet me up in my dreams?????schedule too packed isit???haha,boh su boh su,i can wait=)

arrrgh,yesterday rain quiet heavily.....nearly hit by a bus......omg,thanks for blessing me...i know i should be more careful next time......

miss ya my dear angel

new song for my recent mood,I'm coming home

I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming

[Diddy]
Back where I belong, yeah I never felt so strong
(I’m back baby)
I feel like there’s nothing that I can’t try
And if you with me put your hands high
(put your hands high)
If you ever lost a light before, this ones for you
And you, the dreams are for you

I hear “The Tears of a Clown”
I hate that song
I feel like they talking to me when it comes on
Another day another Dawn
Another Keisha, nice to meet ya, get the math I’m gone
What am I ‘posed to do when the club lights come on
Its easy to be Puff, its harder to be Sean
What if the twins ask why I aint marry their mom (why, damn!)
How do I respond?
What if my son stares with a face like my own
And says he wants to be like me when he’s grown
Sh-t! But I aint finished growing
Another night the inevitible prolongs
Another day another Dawn
Just tell Taneka and Taresha I’ll be better in the morn’
Another lie that I carry on
I need to get back to the place I belong

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming


[Diddy - Verse 2]
“A house is Not a Home“, I hate this song
Diddy Coming Home lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/diddy-coming-home-lyrics.html

Is a house really a home when your loved ones are gone
And n-ggas got the nerve to blame you for it
And you know you woulda took the bullet if you saw it
But oyu felt it and still feel it
And money can’t make up for it or conceal it
But you deal with it and you keep ballin’
Pour out some liquor, play ball and we keep ballin’
Baby we’ve been living in sin ’cause we’ve been really in love
But we’ve been living as friends
So you’ve been a guest in your own home
It’s time to make your house your home
Pick up your phone, come on

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming


[Diddy - Verse 3]
“Ain’t No Stopping Us Now“, I love that song
Whenever it comes on it makes me feel strong
I thought I told y’all that we won’t stop
We back cruising through Harlem, Viso blocks
It’s what made me, saved me, drove me crazy
Drove me away than embraced me
Forgave me for all of my shortcomings
Welcome to my homecoming
Yeah it’s been a long time coming
Lot of fights, lot of scars, lot of bottles
Lot of cars, lot of ups, lot of downs
Made it back, lost my dog (I miss you BIG)
And here I stand, a better man! (a better man)
Thank you Lord (Thank you Lord)

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming

就让我暂时当个缩头乌龟吧。。。

我还是不能释怀，不能接受。。。
hey~我真的好想你，不知道你现在到底在哪里？
眼睛干干的，有想哭的心情。。。。
充分表达了我的心情。。。。
有时还是会看看你的profile,看看你的fanpage.....
就是不敢相信你真的离开了。。。
最近都睡不着。。。失眠。。。。因为一个梦境。。。。让我不敢睡觉。。。。。那时的你很痛苦躺在病床上。。。。哭着醒来。。。。希望这只是我的幻想而已。。。。

杰，我们六蓝班终于有了第一次的同学会。。。。有给你个位子。。。我相信你那时也在那里对吧！因为你我们又聚在一起咯！

请你保佑我七月去kl读书能顺利哦。。。。这次我会好好的读书了！发奋图墙！！！！不再让爸爸担心了！

你始终还是离开了。。。。

今天是阿杰出殡的日子。。。很遗憾我不能去陪他走完最后的路。。。

星期六晚上，我，natasha,devy,ment,yin wei,yew ling 拼了命终于折完了1000只纸鹤。。。还有ahlon,sterling,ah shuai,eric他们帮忙折不然我们真的赶不完。。。。就是想给你看哦。。。。明明那时去看你的时候，你都还好好的。。。。为什么在我们离开不久，你却静静的离开人世呢？

杰，你真的让我已引以为傲，你始终都没放弃过自己。。。。再抢救三次，你都度过难关，从鬼门关踏出来。。。这已经足够了，你真的很棒！！！爸爸真的很骄傲！！！

当我知道你每次在我失恋的时候，都会想要打那个伤害我的人，还没跟你说我真的很感动时，你却走了。。。。真的很舍不得。。。。

小学到中学的回忆都有你，你走了。。。。心好像缺了一角。。。。。

ment说那些纸鹤都摆在你的身边。。。愿有它们的陪伴你在去天堂的路上并不寂寞。。。要成为大家的天使哦。。。。守护大家。。。。

今天老天爷也为你哭泣哦，一个二十岁的年轻人还没体会人生就这样走了。。。约定好，来世再当我的好朋友。。。。。

4th day....

I felt so useless.........fuck the pantangs!!!!!!!i couldnt go to hospital tat often..........i only get to know kiat's news from jackson,ment,yew ling,natasha and devy.........this is the fourth day tat kiat has been unconscious,devy,nat,yin wei and i plan to fold 1000 paper cranes for him as we heard there's a legend that 1000 paper cranes means longevity........i really hope he can go thru this......

my heart could not stop worrying for him.....devy and i felt uncomfortable since this afternoon,then during the evening i received a message from ment said kiat's blood pressure went down to 20 like the day i saw his heart stopped beating.....my heart suddenly aches......pounding so hard that i barely could breathe.......then i messaged gene whether she's in church......asking for her help from the church members to pray for kiat.........

i called yew ling.........yew ling told me kiat's blood pressure rise back to normal...........THANKS　LORD!!!!keep updating with him about kiat's news.....

nat,devy and yin wei all were sick........i asked them to take k,and get some rest......i cant see another friend get sick again........it really worries me.........

while folding all those paper cranes.....flashbacks of the memories from primary school to secondary school.....all connected with kiat.........i sobbed.......wiped away all those tears....i know kiat would not want to see me cry like tat,i dreamt of him........once.....he just standing there smiling at me.......and i'm pointing and scolding him non-stop..........

So regret that i didnt cherish him while he's healthy and by my side.....

i just could not accept the truth,i just talk thru the phone with him a week ago.....and he's now unable to talk to me.........
when i called him in the male wad.......i saw tears from his eyes........he can hear me....i know he's suffering......a lot more than wad we can imagine........so i will cry no more........

kiat,we haven finsih the competition o,so dun give up so easily!!!!

杰。。。。请你快快醒来

sleepless nite,i cannot fall asleep...........once i close my eyes,the image of kiat lying on the bed unconsciously keeps showing up......i'm scared and worried......dun even dare to cry in front of his family.....

TAN SAY KIAT!!!!! u better wake up now!or i will pinch ur face tomorrow!!!!!i miss the times u called me pui!i know you're always there for me and now,it's my turn to be there for u!

*PRAY*

i move on...

After the judgement day,My lecturer gave us a motivation talk....erm quite a short one.....but it really keeps me thinking.......and i really dont feel that down anymore

Failing to plan is planning to fail.....however,failing is just a phrase in ur life.......wad matters is YOU STILL MOVE ON....

Lack of confidence causing lack of motivation........i really do not hate accounting,quite enjoying it........but haissss........ACCA can u be a lot more easier..........it's kinda depressing when u keep scoring low marks for ur test..........damn it.........getting stupid and noob........IQ dropping.......i guess

I hate financial reporting,who fucking cares about IAS!!!!!making accountant's life miserable nia!!!!!!

失望

it's judgement day!yeah,hopefully i passed both papers especially law paper,however i'm not happy for the marks which i think i could do much better than this.....no motivation,how to find motivation????

Daddy owes been supportive .............one day i'll make u proud......that's wad i promise him .....
dun want to let daddy down..............

After the result has released,i'm relieved but felt remorse.........full of guilt.........i didnt try my best..........afterall......i must be responsible for wad i've done........

so fed up with the IAS thingy!!!!!!!siapa boleh ajar saya?????????sob............the papers are getting tougher ....when u tend to put ur heart in learning....but u understand nothing,it's so depressing..................

UNDER PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我真的累了

最近的我，很不爱惜自己。。。。

I'm tired,had enough.....physically and emotionally.....身体再抗议，姨妈都迟来报到。。。我还是抵不过mocha chips milk shake的诱惑，自找痛苦。。。。。

今天庆祝了尹薇的生日。。。。看到她高兴就好了，期盼她能走出情伤，早点遇到下个恋情。

早上跟老妈子吵架，心情超差，掩饰，不想影响到其他人。。。毕竟今天还是得帮尹薇庆生。。。

习惯把悲伤留给我自己。。。。望着电话，找不到人好诉苦。。。郁闷到要死。。。。

好希望有个人能对我说，肩膀，耳朵都借你。。。。。一个人累到一个极限。。。还是想要一个依靠。。。。

突然有个念头，很想要休学。。。每天忙着在店帮忙，累到在上课都打瞌睡，都没人体谅，终觉得我的考试会考不好，就不想读了。。。。在这里我无法专心读书。。。。这就是我想离开的原因。。。。我也不想呆在有你的地方。。。。am i pushing myself too much????i scared the outcome is not wad i am expecting.....

我是否患上轻微的忧郁症？？。。。很有压力的时候，我就会一个人流眼泪，甚至会感到窒息。。。晚上一直睡不好，甚至哭着睡醒，这正常吗？？？

我想给自己一断空白的时间。。。。整理情绪。。。。。重新出发。。。。或许这只是我给自己逃避的借口吧。。。。。how i wish there's a shelter for me,only me......

我想我真的累了。。。。。

那个女人....唱到心坎里

我被这首“秘密花园”的插曲深深的吸引了，非常着迷。。。。一开笔电就会play这首歌...

白智英的声音真不是盖的！！！！太赞了！！！！！简直唱出每个女人的心事，唱到心坎里！！！！看歌词的时候，我有点鼻酸。。。。不要说我做作，你去读一下就能了lor....

한 여자가 그대를 사랑합니다/有个女人正爱着你
그 여자는 열심히 사랑합니다/那个女人认真的爱着你
매일 그림자처럼 그대를 따라다니며/每天每天 就像是你的影子 跟随着你
그 여자는 웃으며 울고있어요/那个女人 笑着 却也哭着

얼마나 얼마나 더 너를 이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자/究竟还得独自注视着你多久
이 바람같은 사랑 이 거지같은 사랑 계속해야 니가 나를 사랑 하겠니/这像风一般的爱情 这像是谎言的爱情 还得持续多久 你才能爱我

조금만 가까이 와 조금만 한발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는/只要稍稍走近你 只要靠近你一步 就会后退两步的你
널 사랑하는 난 지금도 옆에 있어 그 여잔 웁니다/这样的爱着你的我 现在就在你的身旁 那个女人哭泣着

그 여자는 성격이 소심합니다/那个女人非常的小心
그래서 웃는 법을 배웠답니다/所以现在正在学习笑着的方法
친한 친구에게도 못하는 얘기가 많은/连和好朋友都不能倾诉的话与太多了
그 여자의 마음은 눈물투성이/所以那个女人的心总是在哭泣

그래서 그 여자는 그댈 널 사랑 했데요 똑같아서/所以 那个女人正爱着你
또 하나같은 바보 또 하나같은 바보 한번 나를 안아주고 가면 안되요/这样的傻瓜 因为是这样的傻瓜 所以可以拥抱我吗

난 사랑받고 싶어 그대여 매일 속으로만 가슴 속으로만/我也想要被爱 亲爱的 每天每天在心里 只能在心里
소리를 지르며 그 여자는 오늘도 그 옆에 있데요/这样的呼唤着你 那个女人 今天依然在你的身旁

그 여자가 나라는 걸 아나요 알면서도 이러는 건 아니죠/那个女人就是我 你知道吗 还是你明明知道却依然如此呢
모를꺼야 그댄 바보니까/不知道的你 真的是个大傻瓜啊

얼마나 얼마나 더 너를 이렇게 바라만 보며 혼자/究竟还得独自注视着你多久
이 바보같은 사랑 이 거지같은 사랑 계속해야 니가 나를 사랑 하겠니/这像傻瓜一般的爱情 这像是谎言的爱情 还得持续多久 你才能爱我

조금만 가까이 와 조금만 한발 다가가면 두 발 도망가는/只要稍稍走近你 只要靠近你一步 就会后退两步的你
널 사랑하는 난 지금도 옆에 있어 그 여잔 웁니다/这样的爱着你的我 现在就在你的身旁 那个女人哭泣着

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zoGgqI1o-cE