new song for my recent mood,I'm coming home

I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming

[Diddy]
Back where I belong, yeah I never felt so strong
(I’m back baby)
I feel like there’s nothing that I can’t try
And if you with me put your hands high
(put your hands high)
If you ever lost a light before, this ones for you
And you, the dreams are for you

I hear “The Tears of a Clown”
I hate that song
I feel like they talking to me when it comes on
Another day another Dawn
Another Keisha, nice to meet ya, get the math I’m gone
What am I ‘posed to do when the club lights come on
Its easy to be Puff, its harder to be Sean
What if the twins ask why I aint marry their mom (why, damn!)
How do I respond?
What if my son stares with a face like my own
And says he wants to be like me when he’s grown
Sh-t! But I aint finished growing
Another night the inevitible prolongs
Another day another Dawn
Just tell Taneka and Taresha I’ll be better in the morn’
Another lie that I carry on
I need to get back to the place I belong

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming


[Diddy - Verse 2]
“A house is Not a Home“, I hate this song
Diddy Coming Home lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/diddy-coming-home-lyrics.html

Is a house really a home when your loved ones are gone
And n-ggas got the nerve to blame you for it
And you know you woulda took the bullet if you saw it
But oyu felt it and still feel it
And money can’t make up for it or conceal it
But you deal with it and you keep ballin’
Pour out some liquor, play ball and we keep ballin’
Baby we’ve been living in sin ’cause we’ve been really in love
But we’ve been living as friends
So you’ve been a guest in your own home
It’s time to make your house your home
Pick up your phone, come on

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming


[Diddy - Verse 3]
“Ain’t No Stopping Us Now“, I love that song
Whenever it comes on it makes me feel strong
I thought I told y’all that we won’t stop
We back cruising through Harlem, Viso blocks
It’s what made me, saved me, drove me crazy
Drove me away than embraced me
Forgave me for all of my shortcomings
Welcome to my homecoming
Yeah it’s been a long time coming
Lot of fights, lot of scars, lot of bottles
Lot of cars, lot of ups, lot of downs
Made it back, lost my dog (I miss you BIG)
And here I stand, a better man! (a better man)
Thank you Lord (Thank you Lord)

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming

就让我暂时当个缩头乌龟吧。。。

我还是不能释怀，不能接受。。。
hey~我真的好想你，不知道你现在到底在哪里？
眼睛干干的，有想哭的心情。。。。
充分表达了我的心情。。。。
有时还是会看看你的profile,看看你的fanpage.....
就是不敢相信你真的离开了。。。
最近都睡不着。。。失眠。。。。因为一个梦境。。。。让我不敢睡觉。。。。。那时的你很痛苦躺在病床上。。。。哭着醒来。。。。希望这只是我的幻想而已。。。。

杰，我们六蓝班终于有了第一次的同学会。。。。有给你个位子。。。我相信你那时也在那里对吧！因为你我们又聚在一起咯！

请你保佑我七月去kl读书能顺利哦。。。。这次我会好好的读书了！发奋图墙！！！！不再让爸爸担心了！

你始终还是离开了。。。。

今天是阿杰出殡的日子。。。很遗憾我不能去陪他走完最后的路。。。

星期六晚上，我，natasha,devy,ment,yin wei,yew ling 拼了命终于折完了1000只纸鹤。。。还有ahlon,sterling,ah shuai,eric他们帮忙折不然我们真的赶不完。。。。就是想给你看哦。。。。明明那时去看你的时候，你都还好好的。。。。为什么在我们离开不久，你却静静的离开人世呢？

杰，你真的让我已引以为傲，你始终都没放弃过自己。。。。再抢救三次，你都度过难关，从鬼门关踏出来。。。这已经足够了，你真的很棒！！！爸爸真的很骄傲！！！

当我知道你每次在我失恋的时候，都会想要打那个伤害我的人，还没跟你说我真的很感动时，你却走了。。。。真的很舍不得。。。。

小学到中学的回忆都有你，你走了。。。。心好像缺了一角。。。。。

ment说那些纸鹤都摆在你的身边。。。愿有它们的陪伴你在去天堂的路上并不寂寞。。。要成为大家的天使哦。。。。守护大家。。。。

今天老天爷也为你哭泣哦，一个二十岁的年轻人还没体会人生就这样走了。。。约定好，来世再当我的好朋友。。。。。

4th day....

I felt so useless.........fuck the pantangs!!!!!!!i couldnt go to hospital tat often..........i only get to know kiat's news from jackson,ment,yew ling,natasha and devy.........this is the fourth day tat kiat has been unconscious,devy,nat,yin wei and i plan to fold 1000 paper cranes for him as we heard there's a legend that 1000 paper cranes means longevity........i really hope he can go thru this......

my heart could not stop worrying for him.....devy and i felt uncomfortable since this afternoon,then during the evening i received a message from ment said kiat's blood pressure went down to 20 like the day i saw his heart stopped beating.....my heart suddenly aches......pounding so hard that i barely could breathe.......then i messaged gene whether she's in church......asking for her help from the church members to pray for kiat.........

i called yew ling.........yew ling told me kiat's blood pressure rise back to normal...........THANKS　LORD!!!!keep updating with him about kiat's news.....

nat,devy and yin wei all were sick........i asked them to take k,and get some rest......i cant see another friend get sick again........it really worries me.........

while folding all those paper cranes.....flashbacks of the memories from primary school to secondary school.....all connected with kiat.........i sobbed.......wiped away all those tears....i know kiat would not want to see me cry like tat,i dreamt of him........once.....he just standing there smiling at me.......and i'm pointing and scolding him non-stop..........

So regret that i didnt cherish him while he's healthy and by my side.....

i just could not accept the truth,i just talk thru the phone with him a week ago.....and he's now unable to talk to me.........
when i called him in the male wad.......i saw tears from his eyes........he can hear me....i know he's suffering......a lot more than wad we can imagine........so i will cry no more........

kiat,we haven finsih the competition o,so dun give up so easily!!!!

杰。。。。请你快快醒来

sleepless nite,i cannot fall asleep...........once i close my eyes,the image of kiat lying on the bed unconsciously keeps showing up......i'm scared and worried......dun even dare to cry in front of his family.....

TAN SAY KIAT!!!!! u better wake up now!or i will pinch ur face tomorrow!!!!!i miss the times u called me pui!i know you're always there for me and now,it's my turn to be there for u!

*PRAY*